Today, I laughed with my children...

With the man of god away on business
Doing his best and leaving me the rest
I had to start out early

So much to do
So little time
Before I knew it, it was time to unwind
But instead, I had to find new energy

There were 2 young ladies, pretty as can be
Waiting to spend some time with me
All of a sudden I heard, "Mommy, what are we doing?"

They were so excited to be with me
And though I was tired I had to meet
Their expectations or they would have been ruined

So I had to come up with a plan
I had to be wise and understand
That what they needed was mom to be into them

To be everything they needed then
I listened as they filled me in
On just about everything they could think to share

I took the time to enjoy them
While we cooked and baked and sang hymns
Thanking the Lord for answering my prayers

So many did not take the time
Now wishing they could push rewind
But days are gone that will not come again

I thank and praise the Lord above
For teaching me how to walk in love
So today, I just laughed with my children!

Last Night...

The other night there was a shifting
From darkness to light
I asked him could we talk
Expecting there to be a fight

My expectations were not met
Although it was intense
For a while I wondered why I bothered
Then things began to make sense

He really does love me
He is really giving his all
Women and men see things differently
Though sometimes we want to climb the walls

It's always best to talk it out
It's always best to walk it out
It's always best to pray it out
It's always best to say it out

Loud...whatever the enemy wants you to hold tight
If I had held on to offense
My husband wouldn't have held me last night...

Hope in the WHEN...

I have put my hands to the plow
No looking back so Lord what now
Where comes the fruit of my labor?

I've plowed and sown
Yet my seeds have not grown
Where comes the harvest of favor?

Promises are multiple and nigh
Manifestation is in the wondering why
But more so, in the wondering when...

Heart do not fail me
Faith do not derail me
Hope keep me 'til the end...

Though you are deferred
My vision blurred
I still look for you in the when...

FIRE!

Is the fire real?
Does it burn?
Sometimes I watch as others squirm
Yet all I feel is slightly warm
I've never really felt the burn
So I tell the Lord, it's for You that I yearn

I want to be purged
but only by You
I do not care what the fire makes me do
But let it be real and not for show
If I drop and roll at least I will know
That the Spirit of the Lord doth slay me
And something deep within is being purged from me

I invite You Lord into my fire
It's in my heart where there's a burning desire
To quiet the voices that say to me
Man made this up
They fake the frenzy

I want to know if the fire is real
Will it burn me like a lit match to my heel?
Why am I different?
What am I missing?
In my mind it blisters
In my thoughts it's sizzling

Then there is a burning
But as I open my eyes it's just my heart yearning

And the enemy wins another round
While I watch the others roll on the ground
Shaking, panting, coughing and such
I wonder now if it's simply a rush...

Is the fire real Lord?
Does it burn?

If not, then I need to know
Are the others simply putting on a show?

It makes it hard for the rest of us
To be a witness and attest to this

So I ask you now Lord, slay me
Send your fire lest my heart betray me
But if Holy Fire does not Burn
Renew our hearts while there's time to turn

So that others are not led astray
But redirected to You as we repent and pray
Father, make us accountable for what we display

To all the babes in the midst of the choir
As we shout and dance and proclaim we have fire!

Why Me?

I used to wonder Why Me...

I used to wonder why me
Until the Lord gave me eyes that I may see
I used to ponder why me
Until the Lord gave me peace within my dreams
I used to wonder why me
Until the Lord said, Daughter, why not you
I used to cry and kick and scream
Until the Lord said, Yea, "Me Too"
I know exactly how you feel
I Remember the cup before it was filled
Before I took the drink you see
In anguish I cried, "Let it pass from Me!"
But the Father poured out His love in that cup
And said, My Son You must drink up
Its neither an option nor a choice
Therefore I answered with only passion in My voice
Not My will, but Father Thine be done

Now Daughter, it's not "why me"
But Yes, I'm the one...

Now, this cup, my child will not pass from you
Just as I did, there's something left for you to do
Greater things than I
Greater things than He
Walk in My anointing
Signs and wonders follow thee
Lay hands on the sick
Speak life to the dying
In My Name you shall use the power I left behind

Represent me well in all that you do
Why Me, you say? Because I chose you!