There's a specific spot where my husband and I pray together and it's on my side of the bed. During our times of prayer together, this is the chosen place where we kneel as he leads us in prayer many nights. One night, we had a couple over for dinner and my husband confessed to them that "that side" is anointed and it's where we get our prayers answered.
This in itself is a testimony of the faithfulness of God. This time last year Troy and I were divorced, and no one could have told me that he would ever be on my side of anything, whether my side of the bed or just next to me. But God, Who is always on the side of righteousness, is a promise-keeping God. He said He was restoring to me the deepest desires of my heart and this intimacy between my husband and me, is just one of those deep things that I kept before the Lord, but really it was only in my heart, almost like a beautiful, but passing thought of how wonderful it would be "if". I used to dream of my husband leading me in prayer and even praying and thanking God for me. I don't know that I ever prayed or asked for this out loud, but even those silent prayers and petitions do not go unnoticed by the Lord. Just last night, my husband not only prayed for us and others and for and about many things, but he took the liberty of praying for my mind (in a way which I didn't know he had even noticed). Sometimes I do get discouraged or depressed, but as he so eloquently prayed to God, I do, seem to have my way of coming out of it quickly, but his prayer was that even though it doesn't last long and I seem to pull myself together, he wanted God to heal and deliver me so that it would not come upon me anymore!
I didn't know that he was aware of those times. How desperately I have longed for my husband to be on my side and feel my pain and acknowledge my insecurities...(not so that he would pity me, but that he would understand me better). I was so deeply effected by his compassion for me and the feeling of oneness and unity that I had in that moment. It was definitely an unexpected gift from God. My husband continued to pray for my health and healing and then he thanked the Lord for me! He thanked the Lord for the way that I've been handling some difficult things and taking care of things to keep the pressure off of him. What? He noticed that too?
The man who once told me he would never love me, thanked the Lord for me. In times passed when, I didn't always know what to say or to pray. Many of those times, I thought I couldn't make it or wouldn't make it and almost gave up on praying, for lack of patience with God and fear of being forsaken. It was then, that the Lord lead me to the prayer books you see on this site. When I used to pray from those prayer books I did believe that demons were being bound and that strong men were rendered powerless over my life and over my husband's mind, but I didn't know when I would be sure that it was done. Although we remarried and I know God kept His promise to me, this is still another phase of the blessing being played out before me. I'm seeing the manifestation today, of the prayers I prayed over the years and it's still overwhelming to me. My husband is definitely and "evident"ly on my side. Why do I say evidently? Because I see the evidence in his eyes, in his care, and in his prayers for me.
If you are struggling in your prayer life or if you've just lost hope and need restoration of your faith, try any of these books. Just speak the words in faith and watch God perform His word in your life just as He has in mine. Demons will be routed out...Delilah, Athaliah and Jezebel will be bound and if you're a dreamer, begin to learn what those symbols mean so that you can no longer be fooled by the enemy when you're not sure of what you're seeing right in front of you. I believe the Lord is speaking to you through me. He taught me how to pray and He revealed many things to me in my dreams. I learned to watch for Him in my dreams. Learn to interpret what the Lord may be showing you. Ask Him to reveal His plans for you and help you to understand how He speaks to you. Don't be afraid to put those dreams under a microscope and analyze what you may have been missing all along. Don't take those dreams lightly anymore. Do your homework, study His word and pick up these materials. Listen for His voice! God has given me a new life with a man I love more than I ever thought I could and who loves me beyond measure. My husband is on my side...
God is on your side!
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Monday, March 15, 2010
Tomorrow...
When you serve a timeless God, tomorrow may not be just 24 hours away...
It was 2 years ago, in 2008 when the Lord revealed to me in a dream that my (then) ex-husband would tell me he loved me.
I remember when I had the dream and I thought, surely this is a new man the Lord is bringing into my life and not my "ex". Even though the Lord had promised reconciliation, I just didn't see this happening the way I saw it in the dream. I was ready to abandon all hope of reconciliation and prepare for something new. Things were so bad between Troy and me that I just could not fathom hearing those words from him. As a matter of fact, we had divorced the prior year and he was quite convinced that he was "in the will of God" and moving on to greater things. So why then would the Lord deposit a nugget of hope in my spirit? I'm here to witness to you today that if God gives you a nugget, you better get ready for your happy meal!
That little nugget was like the mustard seed of faith that I needed to activate the blessing of God. There was a mountain that needed to be removed out of my life. Doubt had crept in and begun to sprout up. I was anticipating a new man, but not in the way that God was bringing him. God had not changed venues on me. He was bringing me a new man, but it was an improved version of the man He had promised to me all along. This communication from God was yet another launching pad for my faith which had begun to waiver. If I had just simply seen with my natural eyes I would have missed the promise of God. If I had just simply walked by sight and not by the faith the Lord had established in me, I would have totally discounted the dream as irrelevant or as I said, pertaining to yet another man in my life. But God is so precise, that He wouldn't have me confused. Even though the man looked different (representing a changed man), he bore the same name my husband had. The Lord took out the guess work and just as I have expressed in previous posts, He gave me another absolute! It was as if He was saying, "I know it doesn't look like him, but that's because I don't want you to see him as you did before, but just so you will know it when it happens, I'm revealing that his name is Troy."
In the dream I recall sitting down in a living room. Troy came in the house and busied himself with some activity, and then began looking for me. He was excited about finding me. It didn't look like the Troy I had known as husband, but another person. He was handsome, his hair was in dreads, he was very passionate about his pursuit of me and seemed to be lovesick even.
As I sat there in the living room, a very beautiful lady (Whom I understand now, to represent the Holy Spirit of God) came to me and spoke, "he's going to tell you he loves you tomorrow."
I awoke from that dream almost in a daze, and taking it literally, I was hopeful that my tomorrow was now. I believed God right away and couldn't wait to see "my new Troy". However the Troy who came to my house on the morning of the dream was anything but loving, anything but passionate, and anything but excited to see me. I kept thinking, our conversation is going to shift and then it will trigger a response. I even tried in my own way, to bait him in a conversation, but nothing seemed to motivate him.
I was in error by doing this. I was taking that "tomorrow" as a literal term, and even if it had been, I was trying to "make" happen what only God could cause to come to fruition in His own way and His own time. He simply gave me a heads up so that I could "pray" for the manifestation of it, but instead, I jumped in the way and tried to manipulate the manifestation. My efforts were futile and I had to concede. I stopped trying and chose to wait...but I still felt that maybe I was just off by a little bit.
The next day I expected the same thing and still other days, to no avail, before I released it back into the hands of God and said, Not my will Lord, but Thine be done. I never forgot the dream, but wondered why the Lord said, "tomorrow".
I always knew in my heart that One Day it would come to pass, but it certainly did not happen in the 24 hour "natural" time frame in which I had expected it.
It was more than a year later in 2009, but just like God said, my ex-husband told me he loved me and repented before asking me to consider him again. We took things more slowly than we had in years passed, but ultimately the promises of God (my happy meal) came to fruition in my life. As I have expressed in previous posts we reconciled and remarried in May of 2009. That was when my tomorrow began...
Now, my new and improved husband loves to tell me he loves me. What I expected to hear "tomorrow", 2 whole years ago; what I waited to hear just one time, in 24 hours, he says just about every day. So what I gather from this is that the Lord was revealing to me, not just one tomorrow, but "continuous tomorrows". Tomorrow comes after each day, so the truth in my dream was that he would tell me he loves me tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow.
HOW GREAT AND AWESOME IS MY GOD! So just as the beautiful woman expressed so eloquently in the dream 2 years ago, "He's going to tell you he loves you tomorrow," I can say that it's happening now, day after day. My husband literally tells me he loves me all the time. I no longer wonder why the Lord said, "tomorrow" when it seemed that tomorrow never came. Tomorrow is the day after EVERY single day! I get it now! So each night when I go to bed, I rest in the PEACE of knowing he's going to tell me he loves me tomorrow!
It was 2 years ago, in 2008 when the Lord revealed to me in a dream that my (then) ex-husband would tell me he loved me.
I remember when I had the dream and I thought, surely this is a new man the Lord is bringing into my life and not my "ex". Even though the Lord had promised reconciliation, I just didn't see this happening the way I saw it in the dream. I was ready to abandon all hope of reconciliation and prepare for something new. Things were so bad between Troy and me that I just could not fathom hearing those words from him. As a matter of fact, we had divorced the prior year and he was quite convinced that he was "in the will of God" and moving on to greater things. So why then would the Lord deposit a nugget of hope in my spirit? I'm here to witness to you today that if God gives you a nugget, you better get ready for your happy meal!
That little nugget was like the mustard seed of faith that I needed to activate the blessing of God. There was a mountain that needed to be removed out of my life. Doubt had crept in and begun to sprout up. I was anticipating a new man, but not in the way that God was bringing him. God had not changed venues on me. He was bringing me a new man, but it was an improved version of the man He had promised to me all along. This communication from God was yet another launching pad for my faith which had begun to waiver. If I had just simply seen with my natural eyes I would have missed the promise of God. If I had just simply walked by sight and not by the faith the Lord had established in me, I would have totally discounted the dream as irrelevant or as I said, pertaining to yet another man in my life. But God is so precise, that He wouldn't have me confused. Even though the man looked different (representing a changed man), he bore the same name my husband had. The Lord took out the guess work and just as I have expressed in previous posts, He gave me another absolute! It was as if He was saying, "I know it doesn't look like him, but that's because I don't want you to see him as you did before, but just so you will know it when it happens, I'm revealing that his name is Troy."
In the dream I recall sitting down in a living room. Troy came in the house and busied himself with some activity, and then began looking for me. He was excited about finding me. It didn't look like the Troy I had known as husband, but another person. He was handsome, his hair was in dreads, he was very passionate about his pursuit of me and seemed to be lovesick even.
As I sat there in the living room, a very beautiful lady (Whom I understand now, to represent the Holy Spirit of God) came to me and spoke, "he's going to tell you he loves you tomorrow."
I awoke from that dream almost in a daze, and taking it literally, I was hopeful that my tomorrow was now. I believed God right away and couldn't wait to see "my new Troy". However the Troy who came to my house on the morning of the dream was anything but loving, anything but passionate, and anything but excited to see me. I kept thinking, our conversation is going to shift and then it will trigger a response. I even tried in my own way, to bait him in a conversation, but nothing seemed to motivate him.
I was in error by doing this. I was taking that "tomorrow" as a literal term, and even if it had been, I was trying to "make" happen what only God could cause to come to fruition in His own way and His own time. He simply gave me a heads up so that I could "pray" for the manifestation of it, but instead, I jumped in the way and tried to manipulate the manifestation. My efforts were futile and I had to concede. I stopped trying and chose to wait...but I still felt that maybe I was just off by a little bit.
The next day I expected the same thing and still other days, to no avail, before I released it back into the hands of God and said, Not my will Lord, but Thine be done. I never forgot the dream, but wondered why the Lord said, "tomorrow".
I always knew in my heart that One Day it would come to pass, but it certainly did not happen in the 24 hour "natural" time frame in which I had expected it.
It was more than a year later in 2009, but just like God said, my ex-husband told me he loved me and repented before asking me to consider him again. We took things more slowly than we had in years passed, but ultimately the promises of God (my happy meal) came to fruition in my life. As I have expressed in previous posts we reconciled and remarried in May of 2009. That was when my tomorrow began...
Now, my new and improved husband loves to tell me he loves me. What I expected to hear "tomorrow", 2 whole years ago; what I waited to hear just one time, in 24 hours, he says just about every day. So what I gather from this is that the Lord was revealing to me, not just one tomorrow, but "continuous tomorrows". Tomorrow comes after each day, so the truth in my dream was that he would tell me he loves me tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow.
HOW GREAT AND AWESOME IS MY GOD! So just as the beautiful woman expressed so eloquently in the dream 2 years ago, "He's going to tell you he loves you tomorrow," I can say that it's happening now, day after day. My husband literally tells me he loves me all the time. I no longer wonder why the Lord said, "tomorrow" when it seemed that tomorrow never came. Tomorrow is the day after EVERY single day! I get it now! So each night when I go to bed, I rest in the PEACE of knowing he's going to tell me he loves me tomorrow!
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
WALK ON WATER!
WHY DO YOU DROWN WHEN YOU CAN WALK ON WATER?
Why drown when you can walk on water?
I bid you, “Come My son, My daughter!”
Believe on Me, step out and see
That even the winds and the waves obey Me
You will never be overtaken
You will never be forsaken
Neither will I leave you
In the hands of satan
I will fight for you
When you’re not strong beneath your armor
I will fight for you
When your knees knock with horror
There’s no cause for alarm
Do not worry, neither fret
In so doing ye shall add NOT one cubit
Nothing to your stature
Nothing to your frame
Nothing from your fear and worry
Do you stand to gain
There’s safety under My wings
There you will find rest
I’ll shelter you and comfort you
Until you gain your strength
Until you believe My word
Until you know I AM He
Until you know that in the storm
I will continue to supply your needs
You may have to endure
You may have to remain
You may have to shut your eyes to see
That only faith can stop the rain
The rain of fear and discontent
The rain of worry and wonder
Forming a pool of deep despair
The weight of it pulling you under
Drowning out My purposes, My plans for you to prosper
My statutes are not meant to simply keep you afloat
But will teach you to walk in My power
I said in My word that greater things shall ye do
Than I, and now is the hour
I bid ye, COME NOW!
Why do you drown
When you can walk on water?
Why drown when you can walk on water?
I bid you, “Come My son, My daughter!”
Believe on Me, step out and see
That even the winds and the waves obey Me
You will never be overtaken
You will never be forsaken
Neither will I leave you
In the hands of satan
I will fight for you
When you’re not strong beneath your armor
I will fight for you
When your knees knock with horror
There’s no cause for alarm
Do not worry, neither fret
In so doing ye shall add NOT one cubit
Nothing to your stature
Nothing to your frame
Nothing from your fear and worry
Do you stand to gain
There’s safety under My wings
There you will find rest
I’ll shelter you and comfort you
Until you gain your strength
Until you believe My word
Until you know I AM He
Until you know that in the storm
I will continue to supply your needs
You may have to endure
You may have to remain
You may have to shut your eyes to see
That only faith can stop the rain
The rain of fear and discontent
The rain of worry and wonder
Forming a pool of deep despair
The weight of it pulling you under
Drowning out My purposes, My plans for you to prosper
My statutes are not meant to simply keep you afloat
But will teach you to walk in My power
I said in My word that greater things shall ye do
Than I, and now is the hour
I bid ye, COME NOW!
Why do you drown
When you can walk on water?
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