What You Don't Know WILL Hurt You!

I have heard some say that knowledge is power. The word of God even expresses in Hosea 4:6 that "My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge."

If the lack of something can destroy you, it's not difficult to adopt the idea that it must be something powerful. How is knowledge power? Well, I don't believe it's the mere knowledge of something that fuels the power, rather how you use the knowledge.

What you know about a thing should determine how you relate to it. If you know something is poisonous, you're less likely to come in contact with it. So, is it the knowledge in itself? No, it is my opinion that knowing begets behavior...If you know something is good for you, you're more likely to seek after it or gravitate to it.

What we know about God should cause us to gravitate toward Him but I can recall my pre-salvation days when I knew about God but did not want to "know" God. I thought of Him as "something" to be feared, yet not in a sense of reverence, but actual "shaking in my boots" kind of fear. I thought if I could avoid knowing more about Him I would be better off. I literally believed that what I did not know would not hurt me.

But God! His word says in 2 Pet 3:9 The Lord does not delay and is not tardy or slow about what He promises, according to some people's conception of slowness, but He is long-suffering (extraordinarily patient) toward you, not desiring that any should perish, but that all should turn to repentance.

God sent a man to tell me something I did not know, but this lack of knowledge would not only hurt me, it would determine where I would spend eternity. This man used to come as often as the Holy Spirit would send him. Even though I was not at all easy to approach. Everyone knew he was a Christian. All he talked about was God this and God that. I was such a sinner that I was uneasy in his presence. I thought surely he can see what I've done. Surely, I can't fool him. I felt like all my sins were displayed across my forehead; therefore I used to try to hide from him. I hated when I saw him coming. There were long hallways at the hospital and elevators at intervals down the corridor and I would dart into one of the elevators to avoid him any time I saw him coming (when I was lucky, I thought).

I was so afraid of hearing him say I was going to hell. Even though I had a sick sense in my belly that I was going there anyway. I had only been taught surface talk about God. My mom went to church once in a while and we tagged along. I had even gotten baptized once in a Baptist church thinking I was just joining the church. I had no idea that I was being baptized or what it meant to be baptized. They took me in a back room and told me what to wear the following week so I could get in the water. What? I literally just went through the motions, got dunked in some water with my see-through, white, above the knee, clingy dress on. I still remember the big green polka dots on it. What I remember most is that there was no change, no conviction, no instruction. There was an outward act, but no inward reward.

Then, many years later I remember wanting to know if God was real. I thought about my sins frequently and I wanted to get right, but was too afraid about what might happen. Logic and reasoning was telling me that God had high expectations for me and I would never be "good enough" to "earn" my way into heaven. One thing the enemy was successful at (for a season) was keeping me from gaining the knowledge of God's mercy, His grace and His love for me. But I praise Him for His long-suffering. Thanks to His extraordinary patience I not only know about Him, but I know Him. I now have relationship with the One Whom I was so afraid of knowing.

I not only believe knowledge is power. I also believe that what we don't know WILL hurt us. I believe that someone (just like me) is walking in fear of Whom God really is and He has allowed me to write to you today. It's not by accident that you're reading this post. Just like that man kept coming after me until Truth prevailed, I pray that you will give more credence to the words in this post, than to that voice which has you bound. Jesus wants you to have life and that more abundantly. He did not come to condemn you nor shame you for your faults. That's a lie from the pit of hell. In Christ you shall have power over him (satan) and he doesn't want you to know that.

I was perishing before I came to Him...but even after I came to Him, I still lacked the knowledge of His word and the power that it brings, so in some ways I believe I was perishing still. When things would get tough, I tried to run and hide from them. I hoped they would get better if I just left things alone. I thought it was good enough just being "saved" and the rest was just as it should be. I did not have a sound mind, but a spirit of fear. What I didn't know was still hurting me. I knew I had done something good. I felt good for a little while but I began to study the bible and diligently seek Him. For those who do so, He will reward them. I came to know that I actually have power over the enemy. I came to know that I didn't have to just accept things as they were.

I didn't know about the authority I have to call those things which be not, as though they were. I didn't know I could pray for or against things and expect miracles to happen! If you just give your life to Him and trust Him with the rest you'll see that He has a plan for you just as He did for me. My mind is now transformed and renewed.

Now, my mind is sound enough to know that I have power in Luke 10:19 Behold, I give unto you power to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy: and NOTHING shall by ANY MEANS hurt you! I am transformed by the renewing of my mind. IF THE LORD CAN PART THE RED SEA, GIVE SIGHT TO THE BLIND; CAUSE THE LAME TO WALK AND RAISE THE DEAD....I KNOW HE CAN RAISE A STANDARD AGAINST ANYTHING TRYING TO WREAK HAVOC IN MY LIFE!!! What's better than that??? He gave us THE POWER TO DO IT IN HIS NAME! Matt 21:22 And WHATEVER you ask for in prayer, having faith and [really] believing, you will receive.

Do you want this kind of Power? Well, KNOW that Jesus is not some mysterious character and the bible is no fairy tale. Someone is trying to reach you, but you're running and hiding just as I was. Well the Lord will reach through the airwaves or by whatever means necessary to give you the same choice He gave me. I'm here to tell you that what you didn't know before you read this blog, was definitely hurting you, but if you so choose, it STOPS here!

I tried avoiding the man who eventually lead me in the sinner's prayer! He had some valuable information for me that has literally changed my life. No, it has given me life! Each time he came to me, the Lord was softening me up. Seed had been planted even long ago when I tried to join that Baptist church and the Lord allowed me several years of grace until he brought me to one who would water that seed until something sprouted up. I'm so blessed and thankful that the Lord (Who was orchestrating his every move all along) did not give up on me. God wanted me to know Him...He was desperate for me to know of His goodness, His grace and His mercy. When I was rejecting Him, He didn't avoid me, He kept sending that man, with that bible and that smile on his face. He gave him so much grace and patience to endure my anger and unrelenting, ungodly snares just so He could share His precious gift of salvation with me.

The word of God says, My people perish for lack of knowledge...My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge. I'm so glad to be in that number (of those who are "His" people) When I did not know Him, I was paranoid and fearful. Now I have knowledge that gives me power. I know that whosoever believes on Him shall not perish but have everlasting life! The devil didn't want me to know that. That knowledge and acceptance of Christ renders him (the enemy) powerless over us that's why he tries so hard to keep us from finding THE TRUTH!

Don't let the devil rob you of this powerful knowledge. If you're like I was and running from THE TRUTH...I'm here to witness to you while there's still breath in your body and you have a chance to seek Him while He may be found. Don't run from THE TRUTH, But run to Him Now! He's standing there with all "Power" in His hands and He wants you to have it! He wants you to be called "His people". Accept Him and get to know Him... He's the Only One Who can teach you what you do not know. Knowing begets behavior! Once I let Him in, He taught me more about Him. The more I learned, the more I wanted to know. I didn't realize how much I was dying inside from this lack of knowledge. I did not know that Hell Is Real! I know fire burns but I did not know there was a lake of it waiting for me. Having that knowledge now, I need no further convincing that what you don't know WILL hurt you...


Suggested References: Hosea 4:6, Romans 12:2, Luke 10:19, Matthew 21:22

HE MAY BE WON

1 Peter 3:1-4 Likewise, ye wives, be in subjection to your own husbands; that, if any obey not the word, they also may without the word be won by the conversation of the wives; 2 While they behold your chaste conversation coupled with fear. 3 Whose adorning let it not be that outward adorning of plaiting the hair, and of wearing of gold, or of putting on of apparel; 4 But let it be the hidden man of the heart, in that which is not corruptible, even the ornament of a meek and quiet spirit, which is in the sight of God of great price.

CHASTE defined...Pure in thought and deed, plain, simple, innocent, honest, good...

Sometimes the truth hurts and it may provoke us to shy away from it for fear of seeing ourselves in the light of it. The truth may be that we spend too much time/money on our outward appearance so that we look good in the light of man, but we fail to spend enough time in the light which shines brightest to God; the light exposing the hidden man of the heart. Does He see the ornament of great price which is a meek and quiet spirit? If you're reading this then the light is on...Does it spark a reaction from you or a response? While these words may be synonymously defined, I view each one differently. A reaction is more like acting out against something you don't really like. You retort or snap or reply angrily to something when you react to it, but a response seems more like a calm way of taking action or making a stand. When our flesh is not dead and we're hurting we tend to do more reacting to things than we do pondering and praying and seeking God for a way to respond.

1 Peter tells us that our husbands "may be won" by our honorable, pure, righteous conversation. But, can he be won if our conversation is not chaste? If it's not pure, plain and simple? Not likely, according to the word of God, so why are you still snapping at him? Retorting? Angry? The word of God is here for us to learn and to live by...if we would just apply it as He has directed we would see more of our unrelenting prayers being answered. We pray the effectual fervent prayers and expect God to "do", but we haven't done our part. Is your small fox or tongue still flapping? Where's that besetting sin? Have you laid it aside?

Having been guilty of much unchaste speaking in the past and trying to "make him see" his flaws especially by giving him "the word" with it; I've made it my personal quest to master this passage of scripture. I'm now in hot pursuit and getting better all the time! Let's look at something. The scripture says, he "may" be won. Well, being the analytical woman that I am, it makes sense that if something "may" be won, that the opposite is a factor as well. What's the opposite of winning? Losing! Could it be that he may be lost? If we assist the devil and refuse to put a zipper on our much speaking lips, could we cause our husbands to remain confused, distant or in torment? As I meditated on that one verse, the revelation came to me that I could directly affect my husband's destiny either way.

I could easily "inflict" him with love, longsuffering, patience and endurance or "afflict" him with pain, resentment, anger, retaliation or the like, but I made a choice that I would die to self and see him through to his destiny by striving for meekness and purity while allowing God to have His way with my conversation. I'm all the better for it and so is my husband.

Prov. 31:10-12 Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies.
11 The heart of her husband doth safely trust in her...12 She will do him good and not evil all the days of her life.

Does his heart safely trust in you? Are you doing him good and not evil? Vengeance is mine sayeth the Lord. So what if he's hurt you! You can't fix him but you can certainly put him in "a fix". The Bible says, he who knows to do right and doeth it not, to him it is sin...so let's ask ourselves, do we know that the Bible says we are to avoid much speaking and put on the incorruptible conversation? Are we in subjection to our own husbands or seeking counsel from other men (pastors, leaders, etc.) whom we respect more? What if he's not obeying the word? Can you make him? Can you nag him into it? Or can you die...? Can you be chaste, that he may be won?

Being Chaste is "speaking" those things which be not as though they were (calling it as God sees it).

Being UnChaste is calling that which you see, exactly as you see it. (Have you ever said, "I just call it like I see it!")

God sacrificed His Son knowing that we could never measure up; but He loved us in spite of us.

For God so loved the world that He did something about it; He gave up something. He gave 'til it hurt (literally)...What are you willing to give up? A few little words? Hmmm...that he may be won?

ON GUARD!

I spent more than 10 years in the US Air Force where I learned or became familiar with many defensive terms in reference to our country or our fellow man. There were MAC (Major Air Command), SAC (Strategic Air Command) and TAC (Tactical Air Command) bases all over the nation, each having a specific part to play in the role of defending our country. Some even required a special security clearance in order to be part of the team. Being a medic at the time, we had Medical Readiness Training where we went out in "the field" as we called it, to practice drills in case of emergency or national disaster. Everyone was required to be on guard no matter what their function may have been. Every one of us had the responsible to report any suspicious activity or anything that seemed out of the ordinary no matter what! As we were running one of our drills, we were divided into 3 separate groups, so some of my friends were now in opposition to me and I no longer could view them as friends but enemies as they were now on a mission to steal my teams flag. People I talked to or worked with every day were now "the enemy". At first it was difficult to shake it off and get into the flow of the drill. We laughed a little as it was awkward to pretend, but there came a time during the process where a "friend" of mine from the opposing team came too close to our post and as we challenged him, he cried out, "the game is over, my team's flag is captured so we lost. The drill has ended!" Instead of waiting for confirmation, we took his word for it and began to leave our post...it was then that we realized we had been deceived and this friend walked right up to our flag and took hold of it because we had left our post. We had stopped defending our territory because we trusted our enemy instead of waiting for "a word" from our commander that the drill was over!

I'm speaking in reference to a drill that took place many years ago, but it's so much like our walk with the Lord...Who has given us wisdom and discernment, but sometimes instead of listening to the Lord we fall prey to our enemy because what he's saying to us, seems right. "You've been praying for that all these years and it hasn't happened yet?" "Girl, you need to get you somebody else, since he won't do right!" "Why do you keep sowing that seed, and you still can't pay all your bills?" Does any of this sound familiar? Even though THE COMMANDER (THE LORD) is saying, Rom.4:17 Call those things which be not as though they were! Jer.32:27 Behold I am the Lord the God of all flesh, Is there anything too hard for me! 1 Cor.7:14 the unbelieving husband is sanctified by the wife! 1 Pet 3:1 Wives be in subjection to your own husbands that if any OBEY NOT THE WORD, they also without the word MAY BE WON by the "chaste" conversation of the wives...Luk 6:38 Give, and it shall be given unto you; good measure, pressed down, and shaken together and running over, shall men give into your bosom! Trust the Ultimate Commander-in-Chief! Christ Who sits on the throne! Once you have a word from Him, guard your faith! Meditate on His word not your emotions, and PUSH (Pray Until Something Happens) or (Press Until Something Happens) or (Pursue Until Something Happens)! But by all means do not relent! If you've read any of my posts, you will know that I am a living witness to what perseverence in Him will do! Now is not the time to relax...

Are you still ON GUARD? Are you pleasing Him by believing Him? Heb. 11:6 Without faith it is impossible to please Him...Guard your faith! Guard your anointing! Guard your post! Rest assured that when you leave your post or abandon your steadfast position the enemy, who has been roaming this earth, (just as "my friend" roamed that field seeking to steal our flag), will certainly hone in on your weakness (your trust in a "friend" whose always been there, but speaking the opposite of your faith!) As long as someone is tickling your ears, your guard is down! When your guard is down the enemy can devour you...Remember he seeks whom he MAY devour. He can't devour you if you're ON GUARD! He can't devour you if you stay on post! The devil is no match for a praying saint! The only way he can win is if you stop fighting! Don't let him slither into unguarded territory. I'm grateful for the knowledge I obtained in the armed forces, but that was some time ago. Now, when I think of those acronyms I see them from a renewed mindset. I see...(MAC)as Mission Accomplished for Christ,(SAC)is now Steadfast And Covenant driven,(TAC) is now Try Another Camp satan, this one is on LOCK DOWN!
ON GUAAAAAAARD!!!!!

Suggested weapon...Prayers that Rout Demons by John Eckhardt

He Still Speaks to Us

I remember when I first began to ask the Lord to help me honor the covenant I made with Him when my husband and I first married. I would get on my knees and pray, always speaking, talking, praising, etc. but never really listening for an answer from Him...When things really seemed to get to that unbearable place, I prayed harder, warred harder, expected more and rejoiced in knowing that He hears me, but still I did not listen for Him to speak. I saw the manifestations of my prayers, therefore I believed that was the way that God answered us. Even if it took a while, I knew to hang in there and hold on until I saw results, but as we grow in Christ we mature (if we're willing). As sure as we get comfortable with the way He's moving, He moves in yet another way, but not to confuse us. I believe He tries us to see how hungry we are to find nourishment. God takes us to new levels of understanding as we continue to ask Him to establish us in Him. I did that, and He answered...He began to give me dreams. At first I would just discount them as strange happenings. Then some of them were exact enough to keep my attention and cause me to ask God, "Lord, is this You? This is too familiar to me. This looks like it has some significance!" Then I began to use the dreams as my preface to finding out things. I wanted to know if what He was showing me was actually happening or going to happen. So I began to question certain things in my mind. I even questioned certain people to try to validate what the Lord had shown me. Their answers revealed that the Lord was indeed speaking to me through my dreams. Sometimes the dreams directly indicated that there was something going on in my relationship, or with my chidren, or work. It always amounted to something therefore, what was odd at first became my comfort. He would show me certain women, dressed inappropriately for their work environment and how they would walk a certain way, or there would be a close-up view of the sensuality of their lips revealing that someone was vying for my husband's attention outside the home. I began to bathe him in prayer. This is where He taught me how to bind Jezebel before she could even make her move. He would give me wisdom as to how to approach it without accusation, but to even warn my husband to watch out for certain ones. He would show me when my teenager was struggling with temptations. These dreams prompted me to search her book bags without warning and I would find ungodly communication (love letters) between her and a young man in school. When I was able to put these things in perspective I realized that God will not have us ignorant of satan's devices even if we're too busy with our much speaking, He is gracious enough that He will visit us in our dreams. While we're at rest, our spirit man is very much alive and receiving this wisdom and instruction from the Lord. Take into account, the dreams you have. Take into account that God still speaks to us, and if it's been a while since you've heard His voice...you may be missing it. It may be time to train yourself to listen for Him to speak in an unfamiliar way. No matter what, start listening. Listen after you pray. Listen, Reflect...I keep a journal next to my bed and providing there are no immediate distractions when I wake up, I usually sit quietly and try to recall everything I can remember about a dream, so I don't miss His voice, warning, correction, instruction or even His expression of love.

The beautiful white horses I saw running through the field, were the purest of white. They were without spot or blemish. So vivid is the picture in my mind. It was like a little piece of heaven that only lasted a few short minutes before my alarm clock summoned me to awaken to start my day, but even in that brief moment of time, I know that He Still Speaks to Us...He showed me PURE WHITE HORSES running almost in slow motion. There is nothing I've ever seen that even comes close to their beauty. No Hollywood special effect, no artist's drawing, no snapshot in time can ever express the love of God in its purity. It was like love galloping toward me, gently but at full speed...Wow! and there were three! Like the Father, Son and Holy Spirit...Dreams are not just strange happenings. Even if they're not beautiful all the time, know that He still speaks to us about what has passed (we may need to change an old behavior), what is present (we may need to end an ungodly relationship) or what is about to take place in the future (if we're listening, we may need to change something) before it happens...learn what He's saying, why He's saying it, and how you can respond to it to get the result He wants for you. Start listening, He Still Speaks to Us!

Tomorrow is not promised...

Usually at the end of a church service there is a call to salvation. Many times we pass up this opportunity expecting that we'll get another chance. How many people do you know, who have died and knew it was going to happen when it did? If you have felt the gentle tugging of the Lord when the minister has said, "last call!" or when he has said, "we'll wait about 30 seconds more, someone wants to come but is afraid", yet you allowed that time to elapse without taking that step, I admonish you to take heed...

A Poem inspired by the Lord...

30 seconds ‘til death do us part
(a call to salvation)

Yea though I stand at the door and knock
Will you open it, that I may enter
Seek Me now while I may be found
My Spirit will not strive forever

I came for you in the Winter
I returned for you in the Spring
Summer, though it came and went My friend
In the Fall, I knocked again

The seasons have passed but yet again
My friend your season is now
I beg of you, this offer in full bloom
Seek Me while I may be found

There behind your wall of frustration
Shutting Me out for eternal damnation
I Am coming once more in desperation
Before you choose your final destination

Know that this may be the last time I come
And that tomorrow is not promised to anyone
I Am willing to wait a few seconds more
I Am knocking My friend, please open the door

I cannot come in unless I Am invited
I will not impose My will

That no man would perish, though it pangs Me so
The choice must remain yours still

If you would now, accept this gift
Of life more abundantly
The angels in heaven will be rejoicing
Yet none more blissfully than Me

But if you choose to go astray
My child I’ll love you anyway
Just know I came to you this day
Longing just to hear you say
I take thee Lord, into my heart

My child, I ache to take thee too
As soon as you say “yes” to Me
To you I say “I do”

It’s not about being wrong or right, but
I haven’t much time left
The choice is a matter of life
It’s also a matter of “death”

But I need to know now
Will you take this vow
To Me will you rend your heart
I only have but 30 seconds more
30 seconds ‘til death do us part

Won’t you come???

Because I didn't deserve it...?

Is God a merciful God? It would appear that He is not...In 2 Sam 6:6 And when they came to Nacon's threshing floor, Uzzah put out his hand to the ark of God and took hold of it, for the oxen stumbled and shook it. 7 And the anger of the Lord was kindled against Uzzah; and God smote him there for touching the ark, and he died there by the ark of God.

When I read about Uzzah (whom it would appear, had good intentions to simply hold the ark in case the oxen should stumble yet again) and understand that God smote him in his tracks for doing so, it makes me realize that God is gracious and merciful. You might ask why? What is gracious and merciful about a God Who smote a man in his tracks...

I can answer with absolute honesty that my personal experience at the mercy of God is all I need to convince me that He is...! The temper tantrum that I displayed nearly 3 years ago should have spawned the wrath of God's judgment upon me. I wrote about this in a previous post. I was angry with God for having not yet kept His promise to me. I was afraid that He would not. I was not walking in faith but in fear...the Lord says, "without faith it is impossible to please Me"...so one can reason that at that point in my life, I could not have been pleasing Him. Yet, He did not smote me there in my tracks because God is indeed a merciful God. No one has to tell me that He is. I know He is. My experience with Him has taught me that He is.
The Lord understands our times of weakness and because He came that we might have life and that more abundantly, He may choose in all His sovereignty and splendor, to allow us to make mistakes without holding us accountable unto death. I know He did this for me...He's no respecter of persons, therefore I know He didn't do it out of respect for me...He has all power in His hands therefore He coud have dealt with me any way He desired, but He loves us, Oh how He loves us...Lord You are good and Your mercy endureth forever! I admonish you to reflect on times in your life when you can attest to the fact that God is indeed a merciful God.

Sometimes we utter the words, I don't deserve this...and we tend to keep score when we do something good especially when we don't receive a reward in return. Understand that if we truly received all that we deserve, our flesh would have been buried and our souls burning in hell...Jesus did not deserve the cross but he endured it for our sakes! How much more shall we reverence Him, serve Him and keep His commandments. I know it's because of His mercy that He did not smote me...not because I didn't deserve it.

Therefore I Stand

It was Sunday when the phone rang 20 minutes before church service was to start and the voice on the phone was that of the Apostle over the house where we worship and he said, I sense that the Lord is doing something this morning and He wants to minister to those marriages which are under attack. He asked if my husband was nearby as he wanted to speak to the two of us. He asked permission to interview us during a segment at church...he did not know how it would go. He had no questions prepared and neither did my husband nor I have anything to contribute, so we went with God and He answered.
What He said, "I'm going to use you to minister to thousands of hurting women". What He did, was open the door by one simple act of obedience...saying yes, in spite of the butterflies and in spite of the fact that we didn't have time to prepare or to rehearse what we would say. We had no choice but to trust Him to use us as He desired. After the interview, when I looked out and realized how long the line was, of those who wanted to just say a kind word or ask a few additional questions, it was then that I realized that God had indeed begun to reveal that He had indeed, established His covenant promise...and the good work that He began in me so many years ago, was being shifted into the next phase of completion. The women were grateful. They were loving and understanding. Some were needing to say thanks, others were needing reassurance, but in a matter of a few minutes God had taken all my pain, my shame, my sorrow, and my insecurities and revealed that the journey was truly worth it. He revealed to me yet again, that He's a God Who means what He says when He says it. Even if you don't get it at first, if you would just trust Him and fight the temptation to give in...do not grow weary in your well-doing...you will surely reap if you faint not! I don't praise Him because of the response of the people to me, but the way they responded to Him. I saw women with new hope. I saw women with new faith. I saw men wanting to change. I saw couples needing to know that someone else made it through. To God be the glory! It is now, more than 24 hours since that interview and my entire perspective about the power of a testimony has been changed. We have overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony! In the day after, I'm new...In the day after I know now why I had to go through, In this day after I know now, why He kept me, because there are those who needed hope! He used me all those years and taught me how to stand, not so that I could stand alone and cheer for myself and pat myself on the back, but so that I could now help others on their journey. Today is the day after God set my feet upon the solid rock! Therefore I stand!

THE HEART OF GOD

For God so loved the world that He gave...
God is such a loving God and He shows us His love all the time. He's constantly speaking to us and giving us hope for the days ahead. I remember when I had lost hope that the Lord was going to finish the good work He began in me. I remember feeling that I was giving God all of me yet the blessings were but trickling down from heaven. I remember screaming AT God 2 years ago as I drove home frustrated from my SECOND JOB...My huband had left me, my kids were home bickering, I had just been cussed out and called everything but a child of God at the call center where I worked. It was late and all I had to look forward to was doing it all over again the next day. In spite of the promises of God and all the dreams I'd had along with the prophetic confirmations, I had lost all sight of God and had chosen to focus on the now...well that night I let Him have it. I remember having a breakdown, meltdown, knock down, drag out scream fest right there in my car and I asked Him, why did you make me all these promises last year (2006) and then hide from me. I reminded God that He had said He was giving me the deepest desires of my heart...I reminded Him that He could not lie but I had reason to believe He had done just that. I reminded Him that He said things would not be long and drawn out, but happen speedily, faster! Then the Lord gently reminded me, a day is as a thousand years and a thousand years as one day...WHAT? That could mean something far worse than what I was experiencing already...this long year could turn into years upon years and God would still be justified and glorified! In my desperation, I begged God to provide me with just one thing...an end to my suffering! Either tell me how long it's going to be or remove Your grace from me that I may let go and live!
I went to bed that night expecting to have a dream! I expected God to answer me as He frequently did, in my dreams...This night I did dream but I did not get the answer. I stayed in bed the next morning in a state of depression and determination not to move UNLESS AND UNTIL God spoke! I fell asleep in the mid-afternoon and the Lord revealed! A very well respected intercessor, whom I recognized in my dream, approached me in the church (with Blue Hair mind you)...Blue represents divine authority for any of you dreamers out there. She simply spoke these words, "I hear the Lord saying, 3 years, for that for which you seek!" I awoke from that dream knowing that THE ALL MIGHTY HAD LITERALLY SPOKEN TO ME IN EXACT TERMS! Then I realized it would still be 3 long years for my situation to turn around, but wait...
I had asked God how long would it be from the time that he spoke to me in the prophecy I received in 2006...it was now March of 2007...if God had told me this in 2006, I would have murmured and complained and probably wouldn't have made it 3 years, but the revelation came when I was already one year into the promise. Many things transpired before the manifestation of the promise, but THE HEART OF GOD is that He loves us so that sometimes He will give us what we whine for, what we cry for, what we beg for even if we come to Him acting like children and not faith-believing. For God so loved me that He gave me my answer...3 years from the year of the prophecy was 2009...The date of my RE-marriage was may 30th 2009! THE HEART OF GOD...