On my side!

There's a specific spot where my husband and I pray together and it's on my side of the bed. During our times of prayer together, this is the chosen place where we kneel as he leads us in prayer many nights. One night, we had a couple over for dinner and my husband confessed to them that "that side" is anointed and it's where we get our prayers answered.

This in itself is a testimony of the faithfulness of God. This time last year Troy and I were divorced, and no one could have told me that he would ever be on my side of anything, whether my side of the bed or just next to me. But God, Who is always on the side of righteousness, is a promise-keeping God. He said He was restoring to me the deepest desires of my heart and this intimacy between my husband and me, is just one of those deep things that I kept before the Lord, but really it was only in my heart, almost like a beautiful, but passing thought of how wonderful it would be "if". I used to dream of my husband leading me in prayer and even praying and thanking God for me. I don't know that I ever prayed or asked for this out loud, but even those silent prayers and petitions do not go unnoticed by the Lord. Just last night, my husband not only prayed for us and others and for and about many things, but he took the liberty of praying for my mind (in a way which I didn't know he had even noticed). Sometimes I do get discouraged or depressed, but as he so eloquently prayed to God, I do, seem to have my way of coming out of it quickly, but his prayer was that even though it doesn't last long and I seem to pull myself together, he wanted God to heal and deliver me so that it would not come upon me anymore!

I didn't know that he was aware of those times. How desperately I have longed for my husband to be on my side and feel my pain and acknowledge my insecurities...(not so that he would pity me, but that he would understand me better). I was so deeply effected by his compassion for me and the feeling of oneness and unity that I had in that moment. It was definitely an unexpected gift from God. My husband continued to pray for my health and healing and then he thanked the Lord for me! He thanked the Lord for the way that I've been handling some difficult things and taking care of things to keep the pressure off of him. What? He noticed that too?

The man who once told me he would never love me, thanked the Lord for me. In times passed when, I didn't always know what to say or to pray. Many of those times, I thought I couldn't make it or wouldn't make it and almost gave up on praying, for lack of patience with God and fear of being forsaken. It was then, that the Lord lead me to the prayer books you see on this site. When I used to pray from those prayer books I did believe that demons were being bound and that strong men were rendered powerless over my life and over my husband's mind, but I didn't know when I would be sure that it was done. Although we remarried and I know God kept His promise to me, this is still another phase of the blessing being played out before me. I'm seeing the manifestation today, of the prayers I prayed over the years and it's still overwhelming to me. My husband is definitely and "evident"ly on my side. Why do I say evidently? Because I see the evidence in his eyes, in his care, and in his prayers for me.

If you are struggling in your prayer life or if you've just lost hope and need restoration of your faith, try any of these books. Just speak the words in faith and watch God perform His word in your life just as He has in mine. Demons will be routed out...Delilah, Athaliah and Jezebel will be bound and if you're a dreamer, begin to learn what those symbols mean so that you can no longer be fooled by the enemy when you're not sure of what you're seeing right in front of you. I believe the Lord is speaking to you through me. He taught me how to pray and He revealed many things to me in my dreams. I learned to watch for Him in my dreams. Learn to interpret what the Lord may be showing you. Ask Him to reveal His plans for you and help you to understand how He speaks to you. Don't be afraid to put those dreams under a microscope and analyze what you may have been missing all along. Don't take those dreams lightly anymore. Do your homework, study His word and pick up these materials. Listen for His voice! God has given me a new life with a man I love more than I ever thought I could and who loves me beyond measure. My husband is on my side...

God is on your side!