THE HEART OF GOD

For God so loved the world that He gave...
God is such a loving God and He shows us His love all the time. He's constantly speaking to us and giving us hope for the days ahead. I remember when I had lost hope that the Lord was going to finish the good work He began in me. I remember feeling that I was giving God all of me yet the blessings were but trickling down from heaven. I remember screaming AT God 2 years ago as I drove home frustrated from my SECOND JOB...My huband had left me, my kids were home bickering, I had just been cussed out and called everything but a child of God at the call center where I worked. It was late and all I had to look forward to was doing it all over again the next day. In spite of the promises of God and all the dreams I'd had along with the prophetic confirmations, I had lost all sight of God and had chosen to focus on the now...well that night I let Him have it. I remember having a breakdown, meltdown, knock down, drag out scream fest right there in my car and I asked Him, why did you make me all these promises last year (2006) and then hide from me. I reminded God that He had said He was giving me the deepest desires of my heart...I reminded Him that He could not lie but I had reason to believe He had done just that. I reminded Him that He said things would not be long and drawn out, but happen speedily, faster! Then the Lord gently reminded me, a day is as a thousand years and a thousand years as one day...WHAT? That could mean something far worse than what I was experiencing already...this long year could turn into years upon years and God would still be justified and glorified! In my desperation, I begged God to provide me with just one thing...an end to my suffering! Either tell me how long it's going to be or remove Your grace from me that I may let go and live!
I went to bed that night expecting to have a dream! I expected God to answer me as He frequently did, in my dreams...This night I did dream but I did not get the answer. I stayed in bed the next morning in a state of depression and determination not to move UNLESS AND UNTIL God spoke! I fell asleep in the mid-afternoon and the Lord revealed! A very well respected intercessor, whom I recognized in my dream, approached me in the church (with Blue Hair mind you)...Blue represents divine authority for any of you dreamers out there. She simply spoke these words, "I hear the Lord saying, 3 years, for that for which you seek!" I awoke from that dream knowing that THE ALL MIGHTY HAD LITERALLY SPOKEN TO ME IN EXACT TERMS! Then I realized it would still be 3 long years for my situation to turn around, but wait...
I had asked God how long would it be from the time that he spoke to me in the prophecy I received in 2006...it was now March of 2007...if God had told me this in 2006, I would have murmured and complained and probably wouldn't have made it 3 years, but the revelation came when I was already one year into the promise. Many things transpired before the manifestation of the promise, but THE HEART OF GOD is that He loves us so that sometimes He will give us what we whine for, what we cry for, what we beg for even if we come to Him acting like children and not faith-believing. For God so loved me that He gave me my answer...3 years from the year of the prophecy was 2009...The date of my RE-marriage was may 30th 2009! THE HEART OF GOD...